Do you ever get the feeling when you look at yourself and say 'Boy can I be more stupid than this?'. After reflecting on the happenings over the last couple of months I am close to answering in the negative. It is an unexplainable hollow feeling of stupidity that strikes you the most.
Over the last couple of years, life has been an interesting ride to say the least. Due to some decisions I took with my eyes wide open it took an explosive turn towards more interesting over the last one year. And moi, the all knowing (yeah right!), has taken it all in his stride to ride this out. But I find it to be getting more and more difficult to do the riding. The last 2 months have been a culmination (I desperately hope it is so!) of one more trough.
I guess in the process of riding, I have forgotten what is my purpose! What are the things that I have set out to do? What is my charter? What are my aspirations? While the mind is recognizing this, the heart is completely unwilling to listen. I have been completely blind to what is really happening (to be read as really being full of myself!) around me. Sometimes you have to realize that few things are not meant to be and MOVE ON! The mind says Move and heart says hold! The physical me is stuck in the middle :-(
Does this intensive introspection mean a new beginning with purpose? The learning continues...
Will I have the fortitude to chose what is really important? Watch this space!!!
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