A message across the Eons

Today I was a part of an ancient religious ritual with my father. He knows that both of us not doing the done thing. My father and I reduced a ritual that normally takes about 3 to 4 hours to 15 minutes. We were in some sense clinging to the bare vestiges of a religion we are associated with but not necessarily practitioners.

But even in those 15 minutes of religious chanting, I was stuck by the fact that all these complicated rituals and mantras were handed down over so many thousand of years. What is the origin of these words strung together? Surely it seems impossible for one person to write it. Sometimes it is amazing to think you are sitting in the land that literally has millions of forefathers! And as part of the ritual you actually convey your salutations to them.

The 15 minutes of chanting today have left a mark in me for the first time. Another journey?

Cheap Thrills on Weekend

After wallowing in the by now familiar pool of self pity, I was able to wrap up this week on a reasonable high. Two things happened.

A disastrous turn in a friendship hopefully restored and stronger.

My first size 38 jeans!!!

That was my serious woo-hoo moment!!!

That's what fools are for...

Today was most positively a bad day! It is one thing to be a fool. It is another thing to realize that you have been had all along. I guess the realization that you have been made a fool of is the most depressing part.

I had one such incident today. The aforementioned fool, moi, has this ridiculous notion that as long as you are straight with people they will be the same to you. Today someone just violated the fundamental trust I hold dear and I got totally blind-sided. A good wake-up call. Not that I am innocent, but this definitely is the beginning of the end of whatever innocence that was left in me.

I really wonder whether I am a fool to pay too much weightage to trust as a value in a relationship. It probably is a two way street! If you value a relationship as much as the other person, trust is a given. Else one of them ends up being like me...a fool! sniff! sniff!

Its Friendship Day!

I am a cynic and yes, it is nuts, but I actually felt good about friendship day! Probably because over the last 10 days I spent time with some my oldest buddies over the phone and in person!

It is a wonderful feeling when someone can listen to your silence patiently and work with you to make you feel better! Me and my screwed up head were a mess. I went to meet this buddy as a sanctuary than anything. There he was getting me a bottle of cheap wine (not that cheap really!) from California so that we can get ethanoled like in the old times. We did have a good trip, where we essentially transferred the blame of all things bad in our lives to others :-). That did feel good!!! Through his patience, he did allow me to gather the bits together. I felt amazingly good after the trip with a whole new purpose!

The other fellow traveller called me when least expected. After I watched Kuselan, an excuse of a movie to define friendship! Late into the night we chatted, reliving the cool times of school and laughing at all the stupidities.

It is so amazing that these guys were there when I really needed it. And you just don't have to explain yourselves to them...they just know the idiot I am! And for that I thank friends and what the hell, Happy Friendship day to you!